The first full week back to work after Spring Break has been a busy one, and I am feeling it. Due to Barbara's car having to have brakes done today, I had to go back to my 5:30AM regimen for a couple of days - that was rough! As the school year winds down here, I am feeling the fatigue - even a week of Spring Break didn't totally resolve that. The week's reflections have to do with some situations I have faced and I wanted to dive into that now.
For anyone who has ever taught school, it is not surprising that the group of 80 students I teach over 5 class periods is a pretty diverse lot. Some students are really good, and a few are so exceptional I wish I had about 20 more of them in each class. Then there are the others - the pains in the tuchus that often cause the biggest issues in classes. I want to talk about one of those in particular now.
At the Jesuit high school I teach at, the class periods are called "Codes" and throughout the day there are seven of them plus an Advisory (read "home room" for that). I generally teach five classes in a day - Code 1, then a break, then Codes 3 and 4a, then lunch, and finally Codes 5 and 6. The overall majority of the students in these classes are not an issue - they are not perfect, and on occasion they require a little extra supervision when they get distracted, but for the most part it is not anything I can't handle. However, since starting here back in November I have a group in my Code 1 class that honestly give me headaches every day. Some of them are just pains - they are likeable pains as individuals, but still pains - and the rest are generally typical high school juniors. However, I have one student that has been giving me particular challenges since I began teaching here, and I am at my wits' end as to what to do with this person. She is a female, and for her protection I will just call her Jenn here instead of her real name. I want to talk about this individual in-depth now as I feel that sharing it will help me deal with the stress this person causes me at times.
Jenn is about 17 years old, Black, and she generally does have a sharp mind. Her problem though is an attitude - she is what, to use the immortal words of Whoopie Goldberg's nun character in the movie Sister Act 2, a "Rita Diva with a 'tude." Since starting, she has displayed nothing but disrespect for me when I teach class, and she spends a large part of the class laughing and talking loudly with her three friends. And, my goodness, she has a mouth too - that girl hurls "f bombs" like a porcupine shoots its quills, and she doesn't respect being told to stop. This situation came to a head yesterday when I had to get the Dean of Students involved, and he summarily had a conversation with her about her attitude. This, of course, made her very upset and she more or less declared war on me. Other teachers have had similar issues with her, noting that she talks loudly, abuses hall pass privileges, and she was described by another teacher as "moody." Trying to be fair about the situation, I am rationalizing that maybe she has issues at home, maybe issues with "female trouble" at certain times of the month, or maybe something else is bugging her. Or, she could even have some psychological/emotional issues as well that maybe have not been diagnosed. Whatever the case, she is problematic, and students like her make teachers second-guess their career choices. All I can do is pray for her, as she already has said she isn't going to talk and is outright refusing to exercise reason. However, Jenn represents a bigger problem I have seen in the Black community in Baltimore, and I wanted to delve into that a bit now.
Since moving here just over 6 months ago, adjusting to Baltimore has been a bit of culture shock. The demographic is radically different even from the city I knew here as a kid 50 years ago - it is perhaps, along with Atlanta, one of the few cities in the country where Blacks make up the bulk of the population. That in itself is not really a problem, because Blacks are human beings, and no two of them are exactly alike because they are all individuals too. However, a mindset (and I would venture to even suggest a spiritual bondage) has captured this community as a whole, and it is often seen in attitudes that some of them display. There are individuals who have been very sloppy with their work, others who have had volatile tempers (besides Jenn in class, this has happened with at least 3 other students, as well as with a delivery person and with a neighbor) and explode at the slightest hint of difference with them - and then the "f bomb." I don't know what it is with a lot of Blacks here, but that word is almost like a culturally-defined part of their language, and that is disturbing. Not only that, but they call each other the "n" word as well - a White person using that word would be rightly and quickly labeled racist, yet I hear these Blacks calling each other that all the time. This is something I want to address now, as it is a serious matter.
The "n" word originated from a slang word for "Negro," which in Spanish means "Black" as it describes skin color. In the late 19th and early 20th centuries though, the term was adopted by racists such as the KKK as a derogatory name for a person of color, and since then it has been considered an ethnic slur, and rightfully so. It is a word I try to steer clear of using, as the consequences for even accidentally saying it would be dire - this, despite the fact that late Catholic writer Flannery O'Connor titled a short story using the term which actually taught a good lesson. Yet, despite the taboo associated with this word, I hear Blacks calling each other that all the time, and they fail to realize that when the do that they are actually enabling real racists to justify using that word. I try to convey to my students that they should not call each other that, as it does justify others using it as an insult against them. Also, using language like that is a blatant form of disrespect too - no one should be even calling their close friends offensive terms like that. Lest I get accused of being an "uppity White guy" for pointing this out, let me clarify a couple of things. First, I have some Black ancestors in my family tree as well, which means I too am a descendant of slaves. Secondly, I find equally offensive terms such as "hick" or "redneck" when used to label small-town blue-collar Whites, as well as the use of the terms "honkey" or "Cracker" to call White people. In all honesty, those perjorative words directed against Whites should be treated the same way as the "n" word, as they are used in the same context. NO ethnic slur should be acceptable in our society, regardless of whom it refers to. Ethnic slurs diminish a person, reducing them to a skin color or ethnolinguistic identity which robs them of their individuality. While I don't necessarily think that "hate crimes" laws should be enacted for using such terminology, at the same time I think it should be socially discouraged. Even if people are using those terms as part of the same ethnic group, it needs to stop - if an outsider hears that, it could enable them to be more bigoted too. Any rate, just wanted to address that issue.
The Jenns among us are an inevitable reality - we will inevitably cross paths with individuals like her, and it can be unsettling being exposed to such a person. However, it challenges us to learn, to face the negative parts of human nature and come up with a constructive response to them. If that is the end game of the experience, then it will be valuable to us. Adversity and negativity in our daily interactions with others is a fact of fallen nature - it comes knocking whether invited or not. The fact that it is there is not the real issue - it is how we address and overcome it that builds character and provides a way forward. While I am hoping this Jenn issue in my teaching vocation has an immediate end soon, I perhaps will look back on it in the future and realize that I am a different person now because of it. However, the outcome rests on the reaction to the circumstance - act properly, and it's a good life lesson. Act wrongly, and it could be catastrophic both to oneself as well as the person who is the source of that discomfort. I have been through other situations with disagreeable people, and surprisingly a few turned out better and I actually have dear friends now who once were mortal enemies to me. Situations like this also call for a lot of committed prayers too - when we cannot rely on our own strength, we seek out God and his aid, which he will freely give us if we ask in the right state of mind and heart. The only bad part of that is at times it comes late - we could have issues for years and then only at the midnight hour do we find the answer. That is a big life lesson to take to heart.
Thank you for allowing me to share this week, and will see you again soon.