It is really interesting as I write this, but for the first time in many years I am actually looking forward to summer. Maybe it is because I am working in the school system now, and much like the students anticipate summer, so do teachers - while being an educator can be rewarding, it can also be extremely taxing and I really need some rest in all honesty. I am thankfully on the doorstep of a long rest, as tomorrow is the last official class day for the students - the remainder of the week will consist of a baccalaureate Mass for the graduating seniors, the commencement ceremony itself at the Archdiocesan cathedral, and then final exams next week for everyone else. As I write this now, I cannot help but remember my own anticipation for summer break back many years ago when I was still a student in school.
My later childhood and middle and high school years saw a gradual evolution of my summer interests. It began with the normal childhood pursuits of fishing, tramping around in the woods near the house, and building forts and other activities with a few friends. As I came into middle and high school though, I began to do more things by myself - experiments with cooking, wildcrafting by gathering wild garlic and other things, and some occasional summer travels to my dad's in Georgia, where I would often hang out at my aunt's houseboat near Blythe Island outside of Brunswick. And, I began to develop a musical soundtrack to my summers too, which included songs such as Mitch Miller's "Songs for a Summer Night" and Frank Sinatra's "Summer Wind." A part of me misses those days in all honesty, and now being confined to a big city, I miss it more. A small-town mountain kid from West Virginia, I am prone still to some culture shock even after being in cities for many years - Baltimore is not my first city, as I have lived in the Tampa Bay area for many years too. But, even after exposure to the city, I still miss the small towns and farms I grew up around. I also for the first time know the feeling of being a minority. The Baltimore of 50 years ago, which was much more diverse, is now largely homogenous in terms of population - it is, like Atlanta, a majority Black city now and many former rich ethnic enclaves in Baltimore are now largely Black neighborhoods and they are prevalent with urban blight and decay. Many small businesses are now closed, including the corner stores that one could find all over the city years ago, and garbage litters most of the city. The more affluent neighborhoods in the cities are made up of upper-income White liberals, and at times the poor Blacks are easier to deal with than them. Historically ethnic neighborhoods - predominantly Polish Fells Point, nearby Little Italy, and Greektown - now have a different composition. Many of those areas where Poles, Italians, Greeks, and others once lived are now predominantly Spanish-speaking. Little Italy could now easily be called Little Salvador now because of the growing number of Salvadorans. However, oddly enough, many of the newer Spanish-speaking communities are generally decent people, and even among my students some of my best performers are Spanish-heritage students. For the most part, the Blacks are too, and many of them are friendly on the buses and in the stores downtown. But, the political and cultural atmosphere of the city here has been a bit of a culture shock for me personally, and there are days where I can go through a part of the city and all one sees is Black faces. That in itself is not necessarily problematic, but the radical politics which often infects those communities is. Unlike semi-rural Washington County 70 miles away, Baltimore is staunchly a liberal Democrat city, and even my more libertarian housemate here (who is himself Mexican-American) feels uncomfortable about sharing his views, and I personally try to steer clear of conversations about politics with both my students and my fellow teachers, as many of them hold these views too. This leads me to a couple of interesting observations.
I know, for one thing, that it is no accident I am here. God brought me here for a reason, and I am where I am supposed to be. That being said, I also know this is only a season as well - in time, I will move onto another place where I can do what I am supposed to do. It is those things, as well as an active faith, that keeps me going. And, that leads me back to summers.
I have reminisced before about what it was like as a kid to be entertained by simple pleasures - like when I first got into vintage big band music and would often stay up by myself at night in our kitchen in Kirby, WV, listening to Henry Boggan's Sunday night program on WBT-AM out of Charlotte, NC, and as I did so the window would be open with a gentle breeze in the little kitchen of our mobile home, and I only had the small stove light on in the kitchen as I listened while nibbling on saltines with butter and really sugary instant coffee. Later, when we took care of an elderly woman in Terra Alta, I would spend my evenings late at night listening to either those radio programs or my then-modest record collection as I laid on my bed with the window open and my small globe lamp. I would think and self-direct conversations, as well as later journaling or drawing, as I did that, and I also would do extensive reading as well. Those simpler times were precious memories for me. These days, I don't have as much liberty to do a lot of that like I used to, but I do have my moments of solitude and can enjoy that too. Maybe in retirement in about a dozen years I will have more time to pursue true leisure like I once did, not being enslaved to the culture of acedia like I am now.
Those are some of the week's thoughts, and I will wrap up now and grab my dinner, as I am writing this at home today. Thanks again, and looking forward to next week's visit.