Friday, December 22, 2023

The Wayward Pope

 As if the Catholic Church hasn't been through enough, we have been hit with another "surprise" from Francis this past week - the document Fiducia Supplecans, a declaration issued by the Dicastery for the Deposit of Faith.  This piece of true garbage sanctions "blessing" couples in irregular (particularly "same-sex") relationships in an informal way without actually performing a matrimonial or liturgical rite, but it still has fundamental problems.  Given this was issued essentially on the back of Traditiones Custodes, which essentially limited celebration of the Traditional Latin Mass, and the punitive measures Francis has been taking against more orthodox clergy such as Cardinal Raymond Burke, Bishop Joseph Strickland, and Father Frank Pavone, the suspicious nature of such a document is well-justified.  I wanted to address this today because it does raise some fundamental questions about the overall future of the faith, and it is an integral issue to all Catholics. 

Let me first explain myself.  I am not an exclusive TLM Mass devotee, and I also do not totally reject everything in Vatican II - I think the Council was legitimate, and there were some good things that came from it. That being said, I also am not opposed to the celebration of the TLM either, and although not part of that myself, I tend to hold a lot of convictions which the TLM proponents share, and I am definitely supportive of their right to celebrate the Mass in that very valid form.  I consider myself a traditionalist as well, although I also do have some convictions that would not be shared with my TLM brethren although they are relatively minor.  I attend a parish that is very soundly orthodox and does use a very reverent form of the Ordinary (or Novus Ordo) Mass, and I find it to be spiritually good for my own faith and its practice. Reverence in religious practice is vital, and should be based on our faith in Jesus Christ, and that is what is vital as well as being what the Church has affirmed for its 2000 years of existence.  This is known as Christocentricity, and everything about the faith we as Catholics practice should always lead us to Christ.  It is because of this that I have growing concerns with Francis and his regime as Pope, because I am not sure if God allowed Francis to be in power to test us, or if Francis is a plant of the enemy to attempt to destroy the Church - or, it could be a combination of both.  I am reminded however of the words of the Apostle in Romans 8:28 - all things work together for those who love God and are called according to his purpose. This means that there are some takeaways we need to keep in mind as this whole situation continues to unfold. 

First, the true Church will never be destroyed.  She is the eternal Bride of Christ, and if we read the end of the story, she prevails.  Scripture itself reminds us of this in Matthew 16:17-19, where Our Lord commissions St. Peter as the first Pope, and in doing so He makes the proclamation "on this rock I will build my Church, and the gates of hell shall not prevail against it."  What this means is quite profound actually - even though the Church will be tested, and apostasies may happen, the true Church will always stand, even if only a faithful remnant.  The previous Pope, Benedict XVI, expressed this when he said that as Pope, he desires a Church that is small and faithful over one that is large and unevangelized, and in all honesty, the late Pontiff may get his wish if Francis keeps acting like the proverbial bull in the china shop with Church teaching.  This leads to my second takeaway.

Many orthodox faithful Catholics - both TLM proponents as well as sound conservative Catholics who attend good Ordinary Form Mass parishes - are questioning what to do right now.  Should we go to movements such as the SSPX or the sedevacantists?  Do we split off from the Holy See, declare Francis an illegitimate Pope, and do another "Babylonian captivity" scenario such as what happened with the Avignon Papacy several centuries ago?  These are serious questions to ponder, but there is a simple answer.  Dr. Taylor Marshall and others I listen to essentially say to stay put, pray, and that God will prevail in the end, and that is a good point.  I will go one step further however by saying this - if schism happens, I will always be on the side of orthodoxy, and will align with the side that maintains traditional doctrine and faith.  Simply, the sound, orthodox Catholic way is the true way, and it is the one that Catholics who love the Church and take their faith seriously should pursue.  Also, if Francis does cause a schism, there is something very important to keep in mind - it will not be us leaving the faith, but rather Francis by promoting heresies and abhorrent garbage.  While his faction may have all the wealth and control the Vatican and the infrastructure, it is important to remember that those things are temporal in the greater scheme of things - wealth is fleeting, and it will not benefit us much in eternity in all honesty, so let's not labor under the impression that holding onto the great cathedrals and other treasures the Church has been steward of for centuries will somehow make whoever possesses them the valid party.  God sees things much differently.  Plus, cathedrals can be rebuilt, and even at some point the material treasures of the Church could be restored, so let's not focus on that.  Our focus is ultimately beyond temporal things - not that there is anything wrong with those, as we are not Gnostics who deny the material because we are too "spiritually-minded" or something - and those can be easily replaced or even recovered.  Our eternal soul, however, is much more precious - saving that is a greater treasure than any riches on the earth, which Lent reminds us of every year.  We need to focus on the greater vision, and if that means exile from some aspects of the Church's historic holdings, then we must make that sacrifice.  We can learn a lot from what has happened to some Protestant and Anglican groups in recent years - they went through this same stuff more intensely and with greater sacrifice than we have thus far as Catholics, but they prevailed.  As a former Anglican myself, I remember when the Anglican Communion split essentially over the very issues Francis is trying to promote now - there were orthodox Anglicans locked out of their parishes, some of which were hundreds of years old, and they in many cases were forced to meet in storefronts and funeral homes to preserve their faith as the "powers that be" seized their assets and even tied some of their parishes up in court (this led to many of them seeking out orthodox bishops in Africa, and founding communions such as ACNA and AMiA).  The same thing recently happened to two Protestant groups - the United Methodists and the Church of the Brethren.  Both of these denominations suffered fracturing, but the ones who were more committed to an orthodox expression of their faith formed new and more vibrant fellowships (the Global Methodist Church and the Covenant Brethren Church, respectively).  Will Catholics face a similar issue?  It remains to be seen, but that still small voice of Our Lord is whispering to us now, "Trust me."  Ultimately, trust in Our Lord is the best remedy we can hope for in these uncertain times. 

So, if I have advice for my fellow Catholics, it is this.  Let Francis Bergolio play his little games while kissing his Pachamama idols and watching drag queens get validated by the likes of apostate priests like "Father" James Martin, and in time it will come back to haunt him, either in this life or the next.  We stand firm as faithful Catholics against these tricks of Satan, and there are ways we can express this that are wise and nuanced.  For one, if an orthodox priest is asked by a gay couple living in an irregular relationship to "bless" them, the priest can be creative and give them a "blessing" - that their hearts are converted, that they live chaste, celibate lives, that grace will elevate, heal, and fix their concupiscent nature, and that God will convict their hearts and examine their consciences.  The document does not prescribe what blessing to give, so this will be a way to deal with an issue like this.  Secondly, for those in bondage to the vice of "same-sex attraction" or gender dysphoria, it is important that they be loved and treated with compassion as human beings like the rest of us.  These individuals are being deceived into thinking that what they feel and are even practicing is somehow "good" and "normal," and we need to pray God opens eyes and hearts for transformation.  These types of feelings and behaviors are a symptom of the concupiscent nature mankind has had since the Fall, and as we strive to be the person God called us to be, it is important to let his grace work in us to elevate, heal, and perfect us.  This is true not only of these particular vices, but also anything - stealing, pride, hatred, addictions, etc.  We all have sinful inclinations of some sort we struggle with, as we are part of a fallen world.  The question is whether we are open to surrendering ourselves and letting God's grace work in us? That is what true Catholicism will encourage us to do. 

Any rate, I wanted to just address this and share thoughts on it.  Time does not permit me to really examine this in detail, but at least you get the idea of where I stand.  May God bless you and give you a wonderful holiday season with your loved ones, and please remember to keep in mind the reason we celebrate this holy season.  


Wednesday, December 6, 2023

Year-End Review

 Although it is officially still the beginning of December, I feel it is appropriate both in concord with my schedule as well as just practically speaking to do my year-end perspectives.  There are many things about 2023 I am glad to see go, some I will miss, and others I will just build upon.  So, let us start the conversation and see where it goes.

On a broader level, 2023 has been a challenging year for our nation - with godless Democrats still wielding power, the economy in the US is worse than it has been in a long time.  Then, our government's own failures in East Palestine, OH, as well as in Maui, compounded with the fact we have Establishment hawks beating war drums to provoke World War III in either the Pacific or in Eastern Europe, have made many people somewhat disillusioned.  Add to that the failure of "woke" policies, which are still being pushed on us despite the fact they are increasingly unpopular and also just stupid.  I get sick of hearing about what "pronouns" to address people with, especially when an obviously male individual puts on a dress and wants to be called "her."  Thankfully, "woke" ideology is being shown for the failure it is - the huge corporate example of Bud Light is a case in point.  For those who may have been blissfully unaware of that issue, several months ago Bud Light hired a freak named Dylan Mulvaney to be its "spokesperson," and that proved to be a disaster for the corporation.  Dylan Mulvaney is a gay man who all of a sudden decided he was a woman, and he did so in a very ridiculous way - for instance, glorifying tampons (which most real women would not dream of doing) and acting like a real horse's ass in the public arena.  The most recent thing about Mulvaney is that while he is still identifying as "her," he decided he was attracted to women and wanted to get pregnant!  So, here is the thing - a guy who likes girls (normal so far) decides to be a girl (getting weirder), and then says he wants to be with a girl (he wants to be Chris Hayes in other words, a male lesbian??), and wants her to get him pregnant!  By this point, a normal human being is probably ready to beat their head against the wall trying to figure this all out and is muttering "what the hell???"  But, for the leftist elitists, it is perfectly natural (these are the same people who engage in "puppy play," or "furry culture," a sexual fetish where a person identifies as an animal like a dog).  My advice is to just cynically mock it for being obviously ridiculous and go on with your own life - the freaks and weirdos of "wokeness" will destroy themselves in due time, so I don't let it worry me.  Any rate, that, as well as a clinically senile President who has all the cognizant ability of a Christmas cactus, is where we are at in our nation.  However, it is also important to remember that ultimately God is in control, and in the end everything works out for the better one way or another.  It is just one hell of a ride getting there. 

It is true that to some degree our individual lives are a microcosm of the society around us, and in the case of the economy, that has been very apparent this year.  I have faced probably what is one of the most intense financial situations this year I have had in a long time, and to be honest I was really caught up in uncertainty.  Having limited income, my financial situation has affected even my basic expenses, but overall things are starting to come together now which is good.  A realization came to me just a month or so ago when a friend of mine I was praying with observed that God is telling us to contend for what is rightfully ours, as there are forces out there trying to destroy us.  I need to clarify some concepts in this, because by contending for what is rightfully ours, I am not speaking of the heretical "blab it and grab it" garbage that people like Kenneth Copeland and Joel Osteen teach millions of gullible people. What I do mean is that for things you have rightly achieved and earned, one should be entitled to stake a claim on that.  For example, let's say you are due a settlement from something that would be a significant amount.  Legal documents and correspondence have confirmed you are to receive that compensation, but there is bureaucratic red tape and other issues tying it up while you may be struggling just to make your rent or mortgage payment every month.  The bureaucratic structure holding the benefit back is a hindrance orchestrated by the enemy, and there needs to be an offensive launched to reclaim what is rightly yours.  The difference between this and the "blab it and grab it" teaching is a fundamental one - in the right case, it is an asset you know about, are aware of, and is technically yours as established by legal authority.  In the case of the "blab it and grab it" mentality, those people are telling you to "claim" things you may not have a right to, nor may you actually need - for instance, "claiming" a fortune of millions of dollars and a Rolls Royce is stupid and not grounded in reality, unless you legitimately acquired the fortune and it is being held back by some hindrance.  Also, no one needs millions of dollars or a Rolls Royce, and Philippians 4:19 tells us that God supplies our needs and not some crazy obsessions.  When my friend and I discussed this, it made perfect sense, and we both began to reclaim what was taken from us, and within a week or two later, I get this letter from my university saying that I was awarded additional financial aid, and it could not come at a more perfect time - I was behind on my rent, and was struggling to figure out how to take care of holiday expenses and other things, and God provided for that.  The same week, I also got another unexpected blessing too.  A devout Catholic donor who was of some means wealthwise had decided he was going to bless a number of Catholic people with a very beautiful gift.  So, around the first of November I get the notification that I was having two huge packages delivered to me by Fedex.  I was puzzled by that, as I had not ordered anything, so it made me very curious.  Turns out the packages were a very beautiful Nativity set that this guy had bought several of and was sending out all over the nation to different people, and somehow I was chosen to get one.  This was not a little set either - each piece was over 25 inches high, and the whole set together weighed 42 pounds.  I have the beautiful set displayed now in my living room, and my prayer is that whoever the person was who blessed me with that will be abundantly blessed as well, as that individual has a good heart and he may have made a difference in many people's lives.  Any rate, as I write this now I have a very good outlook for 2024, and if I have learned anything in the past couple of years, it is that I don't have any choice but to trust God - somehow, he always comes through, even when I get upset and impatient waiting on him.  That was something for the year I wanted to share and hopefully it will be an encouragement to others. 

As far as my doctoral work goes, at the end of 2023 I am officially in the dissertation phase of my program now, which translates to almost being at the finish line.  I am honestly very happy about that, for I can officially "retire" from school after being constantly working on my education for well over 50 years now - that is taking my whole academic history from kindergarten to the Ph.D.   It has been a lot of work, and with drafting the dissertation and anticipating revisions, I still have a bit to go yet, but I will get there.  At this moment, I have 5 of the 7 chapters (about 200 pages) of my initial draft done, and will be working on the last two chapters starting in January.  If I keep up the pace, I may finish strong and can have a "Dr." in front of my name by this time next year.  It still amazes me how far I have come, and again, it is by the grace of God I have done so well.  In addition to my Ph.D. program, I have also done coursework in German language (which I needed for approval to advance to the dissertation phase), as well as earning a certificate in Podcasting and successfully completing a Tax Preparer course through Jackson Hewitt.  I am currently also finishing up a course in Tagalog I am taking for personal reasons (all in good time, but I will have an announcement at some point next year), and may pursue some software programming and Montessori education coursework to enhance my marketable skill set.  I will be busy for a while, but the good thing is that this coming Saturday I will be seeing some fruits of my effort, and I will share that now. 

A few months back, there was a call for papers to be presented at a small academic conference over in Charles Town dealing with the Catholic contributions to American History.  The chief organizer of the conference, author and historian Stan Williams, is a major researcher on the whole Wizard Clip legacy that plays an integral role in West Virginia Catholic history.  The Wizard Clip incident happened in the late 1700s at the site of the conference, a retreat center operated by our parish called Priest Field, and essentially it is a story of evangelization and conversion.  A Lutheran farmer who had settled the area was having some issues with unusual phenomena occurring on his property, and he sought the counsel of a Catholic priest, Fr. Gallitzin, to remedy it.  Fr. Gallitzin, if I remember the details correctly, came and performed an exorcism on the property, after which all the weird manifestations ceased.  Moved by this, the farmer and his family converted to Catholicism, and history was made for the Church in West Virginia.  On my other blog, I documented the Wizard Clip story a couple of years ago, so feel free to read that if your interest is piqued (also, it will clarify any errors here that I may have accidentally made in the facts).  The conference for me will entail presenting a paper on the significance of Our Lady of Guadalupe, and it is a topic I did the same paper for as a class project back in 2016 for a Mariology course at Steubenville.  I am a little nervous about my first conference participation as a speaker, but it is experience that is crucial to my career, so I gladly take all opportunities like this as God providing me some background which will benefit a possible instructor position later.  I may or may not create a post on the conference next week - we'll see how the schedule goes. 

We also had a few tragedies as well - I lost three finches this year, and Barbara lost her cat Mallory in September. Mallory was originally her sister's cat, but when she passed away in 2020, Barbara adopted both Mallory and her brother Mickey and brought them back. Both of these cats are really old cats too, as I still recall when my ex-sister-in-law got them in 2008 and they were adorable kittens.  Mallory had been declining healthwise for several months in that somehow she had sustained a nasty injury to her jaw and it became infected - the infection spread into her body, weakened her, and that is what I feel took her out.  Mickey is still alive and very healthy, but Mallory is now resting in her final spot in the back yard.  Any rate, it was a loss, and I am sorry for Barbara that it happened. 

There are many more details I could share, but I am on a tight schedule with many things I need to do as well, so we'll have to talk about those some other time.  Thank you for allowing me to visit with you virtually, and my prayers for a blessed holiday season for each of you who read this.  

Saturday, November 4, 2023

Updates and Venting

 I am not able to write as much as I used to these days due to being busy with several things - doctoral dissertation, a tax preparer course I am doing for some extra income, and preparing a paper to present at a conference next month.  However, it is important that I keep updated on the aspects of my life that matter, and I wanted to just do that briefly today.  And, I also wanted to just sound off on a couple of things that have been bugging me lately too. 

The major challenges I have had this year have been financial - my income sources have been drastically reduced from what they were, and as a result it has added some additional concerns to me personally.  The one area that really has caused me some issues has been trying to obtain the means for making income.  You would think that I - having 25 years of office experience, an advanced degree, etc. - would have no issues finding suitable work to substantiate my income, but unfortunately that is not the case.  There are times I actually have felt sort of "blackballed" from employment because it seems as if I am getting passed over for even jobs I would have perfect qualifications for.  All is not lost however, as recently I got the blessing of having a tuition-waved tax preparer course offered to me, and I am about 50%  through it now.  Once I finish it, I can be a certified tax preparer and make decent money during tax season with a well-known tax management company.  There are other things though that bug me about trying to earn income, and I wanted to briefly address those now, as I am sure some of you reading this will relate.

With the proliferation of the internet, it is now possible to access almost anything, and there are some evil scuzzballs out there who want to take advantage of that situation.  In the past, we all know about the so-called "Nigerian Prince Scams," but in recent years scamming has gotten much more sophisticated.  Two areas are what I want to focus on now, as they represent some of my own encounters. 

The first are these listings on job boards such as Indeed and LinkedIn - the job listed will look so good, such as a remote data entry position that pays $30 hourly, and of course when you are looking for work like yesterday it means that this will definitely catch your attention.  So, you apply for the opportunity, and within a day you hear back from someone saying you are "perfect" for the opportunity, and they then will tell you to give them some contact information and they will cut a check to send you for "purchasing equipment."  What makes this scam more convincing is that it will hack a legitimate company, and then use its logo and contact information, but there is a telltale sign of a potential scame when you examine it more closely - the web address or email they give you does not mesh with the actual business, and they will ask you to correspond on a gmail account with them for more details.  A true business manager usually will not correspond with gmail, especially if they have a personal account.  This should immediately send a red flag, and at this point it would be wise to contact the actual company they are trying to pose as - if you can do that, the legitimate business will often inform you that this is not them, and that they do not typically employ people this way. It is quite a let-down for the first few times too - you have been on an endless job search for weeks, and your funds are depleting and bills are due, and you need income fast.  Then this crap comes up.  In a moment, I will get into what I believe should be done with such individuals who try to rip off others like this, but there is another type of scam that I wanted to address first. 

The second type of scam is a little more subtle, and in many cases it can be accessed with a click or two on your smart phone.  I am sure you all have seen these game ads, in which you play the game and supposedly rack up some money you can cash out and it will lead to automatic wealth.  In reality, these games - many of which generate via companies in China - are very misleading, and while you are playing them you rack up tremendous wins - all well and good until it comes time to cash out.  First, you are told you have to reach a threshold, which could be anywhere from $100 to $1000, and that you cannot cash out unless you do so.  Withdrawal thresholds are not an issue per se, as there are legitimate survey sites (Zap, Survey Junkie, etc.) that set minimum cashout limits of $10 - there is a reason for that, and it probably has to do with some regulation or something.  I have made a few bucks here and there from survey companies like this, and they are generally very good at paying out - I have made about $30 or so on those in a month.  The legitimate survey sites are not the problem - these games are.  So, the game sets the threshold, and let's say you keep playing until you reach that - this often involves enduring endless ads for more bogus games like this - and you go to cash out.  They then put another stipulation on you - in order to cash out, you have to watch in excess of 20 ads, each a minute apiece.  So, let's say you do that, and you think you can now access those winnings - hold on!  Yet another stipulation will pop up saying you have to do a minimum of 5 "tasks" to cash out.  At this point, it is starting to get frustrating, but let's say you take that on.  You do what you are asked, and finally a cashout can happen, but there is a problem - in order to cash out, you have to pay a fee for "processing."  At this point, most people have figured out that something is not right, but let's say you do pay the fee, and then try to cash out again. You are then told you are in a queue and that you are the 5000th person who will be processed.  It never happens. The real winner in this is the Chinese scammer who just ripped you off about $10.  After once or twice being fooled by these shenanigans, you begin to see the pattern with these bogus games - they are out for themselves and they are not going to give you anything.  This is where frustration starts to set in, and now I want to talk about what should be done with such nonsense. 

I know we have freedom of speech in this nation, and that the internet is largely unregulated, and that means that any conceivable scan or con will be out there.  They grow more sophisticated by the day too, and they are where you least expect them to be.  But, is this really a First Amendment thing?  How do scammers and con artists fall into free expression?  And there is the fundamental issue.  To be honest, free speech is not absolute - if it is speech or behavior that infringes upon another's rights or safety, it should be regulated.  However, of course we should never go to the other extreme and just censor everybody like the leftist "wokists" try to do, but there needs to be a standard regardless.  The extremes of letting scammers run amok in the name of "free expression" and the complete suppression of any free expression will not solve the issue.  So, there has to be some boundaries in place to regulate this stuff.  While a recipient of a scam email has every right to block, report, and delete the communication in question, in all honesty it does little to stop such people - on a daily basis I literally get hundreds of scams and cons in my email accounts, and while most are easily deleted or "spammed," they still present a serious issue in that on occasion one can be crafted so sophisticated that it will even snag the most aware person.  Scammers are not stupid - they are scumbags, they are corrupt, and they can be dangerous, but they also know how to dangle the right bait in front of potential targets. The key to this is more in-depth research to fight such parasites, and in doing so we can more effectively eradicate them from cyberspace.  These issues are quite serious, and now I want to share a couple of thoughts as to why.

The one thing about these scammers that makes no sense whatsoever is that they often target individuals with little to spare - the person who is investigating that game on the Google Play apps for instance, probably has a real threat of having their power disconnected or being evicted from their home, so they are desperate.  The person who comes across the bogus job listing on a platform is also the most vulnerable - more than likely that person has been unemployed for some time, and their assets are dwindling and they need real work ASAP.  This is the stupid thing about scammers - what do they hope to gain from taking advantage of disadvantaged people???  The answer is quite obvious - the scammer is a selfish parasite out to enrich themselves, and they have no regard for the situation potential targets may be in.  They have no job to offer, and they are not going to pay you $3000 from game winnings - they are the ones who will benefit, and that benefit comes at the expense of the most vulnerable demographics (unemployed, elderly on fixed incomes, etc.).  These parasites need to be rained in quickly, and in all honesty they should be prosecuted to the fullest extent of the law that addresses their behavior.  If no such law is applicable, it is time for our government leaders to create one that is.  The problem with these scammers is that they are not just hurting the vulnerable targets they are after, but often they make legitimate businesses victims by hijacking their logos and masquerading as these businesses.  When that happens, it can cost the business thousands of dollars in lost revenue, and also creates expenses for upgrading their security to prevent being targeted by scammers who masquerade as them. If you ever have a question about a job listing, your best recourse would be to Google the actual business, contact them, and let them know what is going on.  That way, you do them a service and they can nip the scammer in the bud before real damage is done in their name.  Scammers who masquerade as legitimate businesses are engaging essentially in a form of identity theft on a corporate level - they are committing crime, in other words.  They need to be targeted, prosecuted, and brought to an end.  Any rate, hopefully this will resonate with some of you, and I would also strongly encourage you to get in touch with your local representatives in government to press them to look into the issue and find ways to address and combat it.  We live in tough economic times now, and scammers are a risk not worth taking and must be exposed for the frauds they are. 

I went into that lengthy discussion because this year I have had my own set of financial challenges, and some of what I just described I have personally experienced and want to share my insights to hopefully help others.  Due to some factors outside of my control, I have been somewhat restricted in looking for substantial means of income, and this is a thing I am even tackling now as I write this.  Fortunately, I have been able to keep myself busy with various things, and my doctoral dissertation is one of those.  At this writing, I have drafted 4/7 chapters of my dissertation, am starting the fifth in two weeks, and will finish the last couple of chapters by mid-February 2024.  After that, it will be mainly revision work I will be doing on the chapters to craft the dissertation itself, and that will be a process that will at minimum take another year.  Beginning next year, I will be sharing some of my research findings on the dissertation here, as ultimately I want to use the dissertation as a resource to educate others on a more personal level by having academic underpinning. I do have a good facilitator as a faculty reader for the dissertation, but there are some challenges with that too I want to address, so let me do so now with an illustration. 

Imagine you are taking a leisure trip from, let's say, Virginia Beach to New Orleans.  There are two ways to initiate the trip, and those also apply to writing a dissertation or other book.  The first would be to just have the objective as destination, and if you are doing that, more than likely your travel will be all on the interstate system.  You will arrive there fast, but there is another alternative too.  The second approach would be to simply drink in the journey - instead of just going on the interstate, take some back roads, stop at some nice little shops along the way, and eat at some new places that have interesting cuisine.  It may take a little longer to get to where you are going, but you will have a more memorable trip with a lot of detailed account. In many cases, even the best Research Directors for one's doctoral dissertation tend to be destination-focused - they want a complete conclusion to the whole project when you may still be only researching the first chapter of it.  I have had to tell my own RD a couple of times to hold onto his britches because we are still on the journey and will get there soon enough - just enjoy the ride, in other words.  Maybe they have to do this, I don't know, but they fail at times to realize that doing a monumental project like a dissertation does not happen overnight - it takes time, and you may hit some unexpected turns in your findings as you go along, and that needs to be taken into account as well.  If I were an RD, here is how I would approach it - obviously, there needs to be clear questions the research addresses, and there does need to be a basic methodology - these can both change too as the dissertation progresses.  A good RD will understand that and work within that context, thus making the process much less stressful for the person working on the dissertation.  That is one area of contention I have faced, but there is another. 

RDs are often professors and scholars who have done their own research in what are probably unrelated areas.  In my case, my RD has actually written an insightful book on an area of interest he has explored, and it is commendable.  The problem with an RD though is that they are almost trying to inject their interest into yours, and it may not be relevant to your topic.  For instance, if you are dealing (as is the case with my own dissertation) with ideological factors that shaped the Nazis, it is not going to matter so much what the German Protestant Churches during the Third Reich era did to either respond to Nazi policies or adapt to them (which is what my RD wrote his own book on).  There could be areas where it might be an ancillary issue (for instance, Hitler and other leading Nazis couching their propaganda in "Christian" language to appeal to the masses, despite having a more mythological/occultic worldview themselves), but it is not the primary question to answer.  Your RD or faculty chair needs to understand that and perhaps this needs to be addressed if they are causing an issue with it.  I respectfully told mine (and he is a nice guy and capable professor too) that I don't need to be focusing on things not relevant to the question I am addressing, and while he reluctantly accepted it. at least he knows boundaries.  The RD or faculty chair needs to remember that this is your dissertation and not theirs, and they need to let you write it - their job is to help you shape, streamline, and edit so that it can have the necessary revisions incorporated to make it a sound and professional document that could be potentially published.  We always should welcome constructive guidance, but there are boundaries to keep in mind as we do so.  That leads to one further issue.

In doing doctoral research, there is an emphasis on what are called "peer-reviewed sources."  What these entail are academic-level writing that has been vetted and endorsed by leading scholars in the field it addresses, or it has been published and disseminated in a relevant venue.  While there is a certain level of merit to this, and in the past it was probably more valuable, in all honesty today being "peer-reviewed" is overrated in all honesty.  Let's go back to the example of the leisure trip.  In this case, the "peer-reviewed" sources represent direct interstate routes - they will get you there, but you don't have much significance as all you are looking at are multi-lanes and exit signs.  Sometimes, it is good to get off the "exits" and explore a bit, and there are sources one can use which are not "peer-reviewed" but may actually have more value to research.  Some of the authors of these works may be somewhat controversial, or they may be presenting a worldview in their writing, but we cannot outrightly dismiss them.  While we may disagree with their more dialectic approach, often in those types of sources there is to be found a wealth of primary source material that may be valuable to one's own research.  In other words, unless it has some relevance, you don't necessarily cite such non-peer-reviewed sources extensively, but you use them to hunt for other relevant and valuable material.  If one sticks to strictly "peer-reviewed" sources, one will miss out on what could perhaps be new perspectives brought to the proverbial table.  This leads to one other criticism of "peer review" I want to address.

In recent decades, many academic disciplines have been hijacked by political liberalism, and it has tainted their perceptions of scholarship.  Take, for instance, an organization like the Appalachian Studies Association.  One would think that a group like this would love the opportunity to focus on distinctly Appalachian topics, especially when they are proposed by native scholars of the region.  But, in reality, here is what the ASA really is.  The ASA currently is headed by Dr. Rebecca Scott.   Rebecca Scott teaches Sociology at the University of Missouri.  She is a native of California, and she received her Ph.D. in 2007 at the University of California - Santa Cruz.  Her areas of "expertise," according to her profile on the UM website, are "cultural studies, environmental justice, gender, race, and class."  Looking at what she has published, she is a political Leftist, and like many academics she has a bias against conservative values.  In other words, she is not really what represents scholarship in Appalachia. Unlike true Appalachian scholars (such as Dr. Loyal Jones), Rebecca Scott has no connection to the region, did not grow up there, never experienced what people living there have, and she has no clue as to what being authentically Appalachian is all about.  This became evident recently when I submitted a paper to their journal dealing with the history of mining, lumber, and railroad "ghost towns" in the region of West Virginia I grew up in.  I composed this paper as a final project for a research seminar class at my current university, and the professor (who comes from the same area I do) really was impressed and gave me a perfect score on it.  But, I was told by the "eminent" Dr. Scott that my paper was more suited essentially as a travel brochure for a historical society, and it did not meet her criteria for Appalachian topics.  So, what did meet her "criteria??"  Well, for that, let's look at the ASA meeting held this year in Huntington, WV - it featured a "drag show" and some weird papers about racial intersectionality, and the role of lesbian dancers in Nashville or some crap like that.  What is true of the ASA is also now true of other "scholarly" societies in the US - they are largely politically-motivated, cater to "woke" politics, and are largely devoid of actual scholarship. Yet, today when something is "peer-reviewed," these are the "peers" reviewing it.  That is another reason why I don't take "peer-review" as seriously anymore.  Just because something is "peer-reviewed" does not make it a credible source, in other words.  Just read the academic journals of some of these groups and see it for yourself. 

These are just a few insights I wanted to share today about my own experiences in recent months.  I have a busy schedule coming up, as I will be presenting a paper on Our Lady of Gudalupe at a local conference in December, and I also will be finalizing the initial draft of the first five chapters of my dissertation.  I face many other challenges now too, and covet your prayers.  Thank you, and have a nice week ahead. 

Saturday, October 7, 2023

To Sleep is to Dream?

 Last night, I had probably what was one of the craziest dream sequences ever.  It was a series of two dreams.  In the first, it was late-night talkshow personality Greg Gutfeld.  Now, I love Gutfeld's show, and I do watch it regularly, but because I don't have conventional cable television I watch it the next day on Rumble on my TV.  Any rate, Gutfeld is fun to watch, but not something I have as a high priority mark in my life though.  But, last night, I had an odd dream about him that defies logic frankly.  In the dream, I was in Gutfeld's studio with a bunch of other people - the studio bore striking resemblance to a shopping mall corridor.  We were all settling down for a short sleep in this studio, and prior to that, Gutfeld instructs me to wake up in 20 minutes and meet him in the main area.  So, I do, and as it turns out, I was to be married to this beautiful woman that looked a lot like the actress Tiffany Amber Theissen.  I show up though, and I have no pants on!  So, after several delays Gutfeld is officiating at this apparently civil marriage, and then I wake up briefly.  Upon falling back to sleep, I am now dreaming about a class I am taking in the dream on children's literature, and very oddly the teacher - who is on a face-cam on computer (talk about high-tech in dreams!) looks like Nancy Pelosi!  My crazy sequence of dreams led me to write this today, as sort of a continuing series of talks on personal reflection and developing habits for self-help that are sound.  Like the journaling article I wrote recently, these things are all interconnected too, so it is important to view them in that context as well. 

Everyone has dreams at some point - if you don't, then I would question your humanity.  Dreams can be familiar, bizarre, or disturbing, or they can just be pleasant experiences.  All a dream is essentially is your mind at work while you are sleeping - while the rest of your body rests, your brain works to keep everything functioning.  So, what often happens is that a person's dreams are pulled from their thoughts or subconscious memories, and often they are sort of hodgepodged together in a strangely familiar but strangely eclectic mosaic of things which create the dream.  There are reasons people have dreams, and I have concluded based on my own experience that there are three of those:

1. A dream is a coping mechanism for stress.  In life, the more stressed I get, it seems the more vivid my dream cycles get at night.  God did that for a reason, as those dreams do help us to sort of have a mental vacation as we sleep from the mounting pressures we face during our day. 

2. A dream can also carry some significance.  Symbolism in dreams is something worth paying attention to, as it may be God trying to talk to you.  This is especially true if a vivid, specific detail sticks out to you in the dream and you tend to dwell on it.  

3. A dream may also be just a result of eating something that messed with your system.  Those types of dreams can be absolutely bizarre, and also can be nightmares too.  The best remedy for that is to lay off the spicy foods before sleeping. 

Documenting dreams is a very essential practice to cultivate.  As Fr. Pedro Meseguer writes in his book The Secret of Dreams (Fort Collins, CO: Roman Catholic Books, 1996) on page 69, he cites Hervey de Saint-Denis's studies in noting that it is essentially a cultivated discipline to record one's dreams that takes practice and also a special interest in the dreaming to cultivate.  The point here is something we all experience when we wake up in the morning - if we had a dream the night before, it is often forgotten unless we somehow collect the details while they are still fresh in our minds.  This can be a challenge, because not everyone has a notebook and pen beside their bed, and also you have grogginess and a bit of fuzziness in your head until that first cup of coffee kicks in.  Fr. Meseguer recommends recording the dream with the same urgency as if you were trying to memorize a speech - that way, you can capture more details of it to analyze and reflect upon later.  I tend to agree with Fr. Meseguer on this, as if we are not careful we can easily miss things that may be significant in our dreams.  Now, on occasion, after some time down the road you may instantly recall some detail of a dream you had months (and even years) ago.  If that is the case, if you do keep a regular journal, be sure to document it.  These are very practical and common-sense things most of us should be able to do, but it is just the matter of motivation to make it happen. 

Dreams are often dismissed as being too trivial for serious inquiry, even by psychologists as well as religious authorities.  Unfortunately, this has led to the subject of dreams being hijacked by occultists and New Agers, and as a result, any discussion of dreams - in particular dream interpretation - is seen as too esoteric for serious inquiry.  In reality though, the Bible is chock full of examples of where God speaks to people in dreams, and that cannot be dismissed.  The problem is when we try to seek out meanings and we do online research, all we often see are occultic and New Age pages about dream interpretation.  It is the enemy's way of corrupting a good thing by turning it into superstition, and that should not be tolerated.  It will take some work, but seek out more sound sources dealing with dreams, either from Christian sources or even from more secular psychological studies.  Those tend to be balanced and are largely free of occultic nonsense.  

In summary, dreams are good things.  Do not dismiss them as just the result of too much pepperoni on the Friday night pizza you had for dinner.  And, always document those dreams, as there could be something in them that may be a source of revelation or comfort.  Thank you for allowing me to share until next time. 

Monday, October 2, 2023

Allegations and Politics

 As you may have noticed lately, my posts here have been taking on a more political dimension, and with good reasons, of which I will give two.  For one, trends in culture do have a personal dimension - what is happening in the wider culture will affect individuals on a personal level one way or another.  Secondly, it is a practical thing on my part, as over the next few years I am seeking to more or less consolidate three blogs into one, as my doctoral dissertation and other responsibilities are not affording me the opportunity to write as much as I once did.  That being said, let me get into the topic at hand. 

Over the past couple of weeks, two very high-profile individuals - online influencer Andrew Tate and actor Russell Brand - have become targets of sexual scandals.  In recent decades, this has been an effective weapon to wield by certain people against others, especially when it entails discrediting what they say because the powers-that-be disagree with them.  It is a fruit of what we call now "cancel culture," and it is running rampant.  I know very little about either Tate or Brand, except that they are eccentric figures who are saying things that certain people don't agree with, so these certain people are trying to shut them up.  The presumption of guilt or innocence is not even the issue in this instance, but rather the fact that someone obviously is uncomfortable with what people like these guys are saying - by what I have seen of both Andrew Tate and Russell Brand, they tend to talk about the need for men to act like men for instance, and they also have said some other things that resonate with most normal people but the elitists in the major institutions find unsettling because it could be a threat to the power those institutions hold.  Institutions such as the media, Hollywood, the major universities, mega-corporations, and the Federal bureaucratic Kraken that controls our government.  Many of those institutions are in the hands of an elitist group of oligarchs who all think alike, and they have an agenda that seems to be lifted right out of the playbooks of Orwell's 1984 and Huxley's Brave New World.  We heard it recently when one of these high-profile oligarchs, the sinister-looking Klaus Schwab, declared at a meeting in Davos in Switzerland of the World Economic Forum in so many words what the agenda - they call it "The Great Reset" - entails.  In the creepy German accent he has, Schwab essentially said this "You vill eet zee bugz, you vill live in ze pods, and you vill own NOTHING and be happy!"   While Schwab has all the charisma of a fictional cartoon villain from the 1970s, it must be understood that these guys are dead serious about what they want to do - many of them are multi-billionaires, and they are trying to envision and make a world in their image that the majority of normal human beings would find dystopian.  And, they have many world leaders in their back pockets to experiment with their ideas - I am of the opinion that the whole COVID-19 mess was a test run for what they wanted to do.  Therefore, if anyone stands in the way of their vision of "progress," they must be removed, especially if the offending individual happens to be a high-profile celebrity who dares break from the "herd" as both Tate and Brand have done.  It is one reason also I believe why Donald Trump has been targeted with a virtual litany of indictments, and it is also a reason why one other prominent billionaire who also broke with the "herd," Elon Musk, is a target for destruction.  The powers-that-be do NOT like being challenged for their dystopian fantasies, and they throw their wealth and influence around in order to eliminate any potential threats to the agenda they want to impose on mankind.  One effective means of doing this is sexual misconduct allegations, and that is their weapon of choice against certain celebrities and others who break rank with the accepted narrative. 

I am a regular viewer of Michael Knowles' podcast on The Daily Wire, and in watching that one day last week, Knowles made a very important observation.  He essentially said that the sex allegations really don't mean much in the greater scheme of things, as many of the accusers are guilty of worse stuff in many cases.  Many of these individuals, for instance, had season passes to Epstein Island, and some reports I have heard have suggested that the meeting places of these oligarchs - Davos, the UN headquarters in New York, etc. - often prove to be lucrative business opportunities for the local pimps and pushers, as these billionaire playboys like to indulge in copulation with whores and indulging in copious amounts of mind-altering drugs in the orgies many of them attend.  Despite the fact that they themselves engage in such practices, they are also astute enough to know that most of the general public still is disapproving of these behaviors and activities.  So, what they will often do is encourage their "friends" to indulge in as much sex, alcohol, drugs, and other activities as they want, and as long as they tow the official line no one bats an eye.  But, if one of them breaks ranks, then all of a sudden there are pictures, spurious witnesses, etc., who allege that such an individual took advantage of them with sex and drugs, and this then tarnishes that person's reputation and in turn "cancels" them.  In his book Speechless - Controlling Words, Controlling Minds (Washington, DC: Regnery Publishing, 2021), Michael Knowles notes that many of these twenty-first century leftist ideologues get this idea from the writings of Herbert Marcuse, and the premise is rooted in Marcuse's idea that dissenting opinions are somehow "dangerous" and "violent" and therefore are not to be tolerated and disagreement with the established narrative is to be eliminated by any means necessary (Knowles, 64-65).  The effective tactic of doing so, it seems, is to exaggerate charges of "immoral conduct" (despite the fact the accusers are essentially amoralist), and thus in the eyes of a shocked public, it effectively neutralizes any opposition to the agenda.  Brand and Tate are not the first ones to be targeted in this way, as it seems to be a tactic employed over several decades, and even goes back to Saul Alinsky utilizing fake "Klan" outfits to discredit Nixon and other Presidential candidates as "racists."  One other prominent example who parallels Brand in particular is the case of Bill Cosby a few years back, and I want to talk about that now. 

Many of us grew up with Bill Cosby's talents - as a child, I remember the Fat Albert cartoons, in my early days of collecting vintage records I also amassed a good collection of his comedy LPs, which I still enjoy, and in my later teens The Cosby Show was one of the biggest and most popular sitcoms on TV.  Also, there was his marketing of the Jello Pudding Pop, which really did a lot to boost sales.  Cosby was a legend of his time, and honestly, he was a real role model for Black kids in particular as he always communicated positive values to kids in a humorous way.  Now, around the year 2007, Cosby wrote a very insightful book entitled Come on People - On the Path from Victims to Victors (Nashville:  Thomas Nelson, 2007).  One thing Cosby really makes a point driving home is in regard to the situation of young Black males in the US, and on page 25 of the book, he comes out and says this: "It's much more comfortable to have someone to blame other than ourselves. That's just human nature."  Of course, he is right, but in the context he said it, and we see that on pages 46-47:  "But for all the talk of systemic racism and governmental screw-ups, we must look at ourselves and understand our own responsibility."  What Cosby is saying is simply this - we have to stop playing the victim, blaming things that don't exist, and take responsibility for our own actions and own it.  The Political Left hates this mentality, because what it does is it liberates people to be who they should be as individuals and not be stuck in some sort of societal pigeon-hole that blames external factors for something we have the power to change ourselves.   If you want to know the real reason for Cosby being cancelled, there it is - he said something the oligarchs did not like.  This now deserves more reflection. 

Like Russell Brand, who said something similar in regard to men in general, Cosby is not necessarily personally a paragon of perfection.  As a flawed human being, he may have done some stupid and irresponsible things in his younger years - who hasn't?  I think too even Cosby himself would be quick to acknowledge that.  But what happened was almost beyond belief - they more or less soiled Cosby's reputation, stripping away many of his honors he rightly received over the years, and they threw the poor man (who was approaching his 80s) into jail!  Ironically, though, another Bill and his wife were literally getting away with murder on a free pass from their friends at the same time - we are talking about the Clintons.  If there was actually a case for "White privilege" that everyone seems to scream about on the Left, this is it - Bill Cosby was thrown in jail in disgrace due to a lot of stuff that I believe was spurious at best, yet Bill Clinton and Hillary still act corrupt, and God knows how many women Bill Clinton actually molested.  That also doesn't take into account how many "accidental deaths" (Vince Foster, Jeffrey Epstein, etc.) happened to individuals closely associated with the Clintons.  Is that conspiracy theory perhaps?  Maybe, but there are things that just don't calculate. Apparently, to the Leftist elites, a Black actor is not as important to them as a White demagogue who happens to be part of their little elitist club.  Bill Clinton still has his billions of dollars, all his ill-gotten honors, and he is still looked upon as a "statesman."  Yet, what of Bill Cosby??  Ahhh...the classic tale of "Two Bills!" Recently, Cosby was released from jail, and as it turns out, many of the things he was accused of may not actually be true.  Yet, you don't see all the big universities restoring his honorary degrees, nor do you see his career being vindicated either.  As a matter of fact, I find it disturbing that even conservatives among us still presume Cosby's guilt, and I find that unsettling.  Many of those same conservatives basically ignore what Cosby actually said in his book just before all these allegations began to crop up, nor did they listen to a speech he gave just prior to these things surfacing which would immediately cause questions to be raised about the allegations themselves.  I feel that Russell Brand is at least getting a fairer shake, but maybe it is time to re-examine our position on Bill Cosby too based on the same situation.  I think that once responsible conservatives start examining the evidence for themselves (and I would encourage them to read Cosby's book as a start) they will come to a different conclusion about Cosby and maybe stop parroting the talking-points against him which originated largely from the Left yet were gobbled up by lazy conservatives who failed to do their due diligence.  As a professional paralegal, the sloppiness in which many conservatives have adopted the "official" narrative about Bill Cosby would get them fired if they were in my profession.  Crap like that has sent innocent people in the past to the electric chair.  If recent events and the proliferation of this "wokeness" crap taught us anything, it should be that perhaps it is time we exercise some "fact-checking" of our own against established narratives.  We might surprise ourselves. 

Any rate, I just wanted to address this, as you can also read an earlier article a few years back specifically dealing with Cosby for more information.   Have a good week ahead and thank you for allowing me to share.  

Monday, September 25, 2023

The Art of the Journal

 


For about 27 years or more, I have been keeping a personal journal.  Journaling is a practice that requires consistency and discipline, and thus it took a few false starts to really establish my own routine.  In recent years journaling has become more of a thing, and it's actually a good trend.  I wanted to just share my own experiences at journaling and use it to offer tips to others who may feel a desire to keep a journal, but no gumption to start one.  And, this is the first piece of advice I will give as we kick off the conversation - don't think about it, but just start!  That is what I essentially did, and it was the best thing I ever embarked upon as a personal project.  That being said, let's see where this conversation goes. 

There are many reasons and also many methods to journaling.  Journals can be permanent as a record of one's daily thoughts, or they can be specific - for instance, taking a course, undergoing a medical procedure, going through a life change, etc.   Some people feel the need to keep a specific journal for a specific reason - that is perfectly fine, as there is no rubric to when to keep a journal nor for how long.  The journal serves a primary purpose of challenging feelings and thoughts in a way one may not be otherwise able to communicate them, and it also is an opportunity to share feelings in a way you cannot with another person.  The journal is between you, it, and God, and only you can decide whether to share it or not.  This means then that anyone can keep a journal.  And, that leads to another observation.

You do not have to be a professional writer or anything else to keep a journal - write as you like, and don't worry about proper grammar, etc.  It does help if you know proper grammar, but it isn't necessary. Also, the more you write, the better you will write anyway.  Your journal will not be graded on grammatical perfection, and it also will not be scrutinized by a bunch of pompous-assed critics who fancy themselves literary experts (we all know about self-proclaimed "experts," and in all honesty, you can crap in one hand and place an "expert" opinion in the other, and then weigh them to see which has more substance).  Your journal is your thoughts, and you have the prerogative to express them in a way that reflects who you are.  Getting over that hurdle is something that will be a motivating factor in keeping a regular journal.  And, that leads to another issue worth examination - privacy.

A journal ideally is private - it is for the writer's eyes only, and the writer of the journal has the freedom to choose how much they want to disclose.  Even in a court of law, a personal journal should never be considered admissable evidence, as it is a violation of privacy and thus sacrosanct.  A person may actually be a raving psycho in their journal, but it is still just that - their journal. Further, if you are married, this is an area you also do have some freedom to not share with your spouse - if you feel comfortable doing so, then that is fine, but it should not be a condition of marriage for a spouse to have access to their husband's or wife's personal thoughts.  If a spouse tries to guilt you into letting you read your personal journal, it probably means that your spouse has serious insecurities and trust issues.  Therefore, at the start of a marriage, you can establish boundaries.  And, besides, if you pass away before they do, then they can read all they want because it will not matter then.  This may seem a bit controversial, but I think it is also a reasonable standard as well. 

So, this leads to methodology.  A journal is not something that is concrete as far as form goes - it can be as dry as just documenting daily activities, or it can be a practical novella.   That depends on the personality and writing style of the person keeping the journal.  Journals are also not restricted to just written words either - there are sketch journals, photo journals, and even scrapbook journals that contain bits and pieces of different things that inspire the person.   Content is also open as well - a journal can record daily events, it can also be a tool to use in daily religious devotion, it can be a way to vent things that may be weighing on one's mind, it can be a record of your dreams you have as you sleep, or it can be a combination of all the above.  That again is the prerogative of the person composing the journal.  In the case of mine, I am one who includes all the above, as together for me they present a more comprehensive picture.  Be as creative as you want with your journal, in other words. 

Another misconception is that a personal journal is just one book - anyone who would see mine would instantly radically change their view.  While there are instances of one-volume journals for particular circumstances, a journal kept daily will accumulate multiple volumes.  In my case, I have been writing in mine for over 27 years, and all of the books I have of my journal fill up a whole shelf in a cabinet right now, and there will be more I am sure.  The more and longer you write, the more of a personal library of your thoughts you are going to build.  I will get into shortly how that works, and what the best type of book to record your journal really is.  

As for designating time to keep a journal, in my experience that also varies.  While it is a good discipline to set aside a regular time each day to write down thoughts in your journal, it may not always be convenient.  Over the years, I have written entries in my journals in bizarre places such as office bathrooms, break rooms, restaurant booths, parking lots, parks, bus stops, and at my desk in offices I have worked on slow work days.  Writing in a journal is a good way to pass time when you are waiting on a bus or a ride, or if you have to be at the office some time before your work shift starts.  You can use it to clear your head and focus yourself for the day ahead in that case.  Ideally, I like writing journal entries before I go to sleep at night, as generally I am by myself and it is quiet and I don't risk being disturbed.  A big pet-peeve I have is when you happen to be writing at a bus stop or something and some stranger who doesn't know you from the man in the moon comes up and has to ask "Whatcha doin'?" and it will provoke a rude response like telling such a person what they can go do to themselves and to mind their own frigging business.  If you see a stranger reading a book, or writing something, just mind your own damn business and leave them alone - they don't want you sticking your nose where it doesn't belong.  If they wanted to share that with you, they would - but, they don't know who you are, nor do they care, so what they do is not your business.  This is something called common courtesy.  I just wanted to share that as it is a major area of contention at times. 

A journal may also inspire one to pursue other things.  My journal, for instance, inspired me to blog, and it also gave me inspiration to write down my whole life story in a way that is comprehensive.  That latter aspect is something I owe a debt of gratitude to my late mother for.  Back when I was just beginning my journal in 1996, one day Mom was visiting our house and she got to talking about a dog we used to have named Jill.  Reliving some of those memories caused a bit of inspiration for me that night as I was doing my daily journal entry - I could use my journal as a way to tell my own story!  For the next year and a half or so, I wrote different aspects of my life story as part of my daily journal entry, and some time later I decided to collect those into a separate book and then add details as I recalled them or they were given to me on areas I may not have been old enough to remember.  After my 60th birthday in a few years, I plan on typing that whole story out and getting it bound into a book.  It is a legacy I can leave behind, and thus integral to keeping our family history fresh too. 

My journal has also aided in doing blogging like this - even this conversation on journaling is the result of a journal entry!  The journal helps me often to get some thoughts organized so I can present a good story for my blogs, and thus it plays an integral role.  It also has helped over the years with class projects and other things too.  While not divulging the entire aspect of the journal, you can glean the idea and apply it.  

One further aspect of journaling that is important has to do with dreams.  Everyone has dreams at night while we sleep, and on occasion those dreams stick out to us.  A dream can be explained by a number of things.  For one, it is a type of positive coping mechanism especially during times of stress.  Secondly, it is more or less a sort of convergence of a lot of thoughts, memories, etc., that one has floating around in their head - the dream mechanism gives those disparate thoughts expression.  Third, if you are a religious person like I am, some dreams have meanings - pay attention in particular to details that stick out in a dream, as they could have some significance.  Fourth, a dream can also be a reaction to too many onions in your fish cakes or spicy pepperoni on your pizza, and thus they can range from the bizarre to the frightening.  Whatever the case, if you wake up with that dream fresh on your mind, write it down!  If you cannot do a journal right away, then at least keep a small notebook handy to write your dream and its details down so you can then add it to your journal later.   Some people keep a journal exclusively for dreams too, and that is largely their choice on that.  Dreams can tell one a lot about themselves though, so it is important to document them.  And if a particular detail sticks out, then look it up to see if there may be some symbolism behind it.  I had a dream like that myself recently entailing my traveling to different Pacific islands.  In the dream, one particular word, "buhay," stuck out.  When I inquired about the meaning of that word, I found out it was a Tagalog word meaning "life."  Knowing that detail put that entire dream into perspective.  Writing these things down will prove valuable later. 

Finally, the question arises as to what type of book do you keep a journal in?  Again, there is not a set criteria for this, but I stick generally with professionally-made journal books as they just look better.  However, in the past I have used spiral notebooks, composition books, and other things as journals, but for the most part they are not really designed for the type of interaction you will want to have, so a neatly bound book specifically for journaling is your best bet.  On Amazon oftentimes, you can buy these in bulk quantities of ten, which is what I do.  That way, you don't have an interrupted journal routine.  Always keep a dependable ink pen with your journal book too - some ready-made books have a place for pens in them.   Then, keep the journal book in a secure place so that nosy people in the house do not mess with it.   You can also add things to the journal as well - items such as sticker art, bookmarks, photos, prayer cards, and even some newspaper and magazine clippings can be inserted between the pages.  I do this a lot with mine.  Your journal is a blank canvas, and thus you have the opportunity to design it as you see fit. 

Thank you for allowing me to share these practical tips about journaling, and I encourage you to maybe consider taking journaling up as a routine, as it will be a valuable resource later.  Any rate, so long until next visit. 

Friday, September 22, 2023

The Thrower Music Collection Update - Year 41

 In all honesty, I had not planned on updating this year because it has been a slow year for my collection.  With a lack of funds, as well as not really having a lot of items I am seeking after now, there was minimal activity.  But, I want to still report on what I did get, as it is significant.  

To begin, here are the numbers.  As of today, the total number of my items in my library is 3187, which breaks down to 1840 CDs, 1142 LP records, and 207 DVDs.   That means we are about 15 items from 3200 in the collection total.  The net gains for this year include 1 LP record, 1 2-disc CD set, and three DVD movies, which is a grand total of 6 new items.  Now, we can go into detail as to what those are. 

The LP record is of significance, as it is one of the last albums Harry James recorded before he passed away.  The LP is titled Ciribiribin after his theme song and was released in 1983.  I originally had this on a cassette tape when I was a teenager, and the major reason I got it was because of one song, Harry's stellar rendition of the 1970s pop song "Can't Take My Eyes Off of You."   This recording is very hard to find reissued on CD, and as far as I am aware, I don't think it has been.  Therefore, getting it on LP assures it a place in the collection.  The CD set is of the 1920s saxophone legend Loren McMurray, who was featured on several early records of bands such as those of Sam Lanin and Ben Selvin, but he also had a group of his own.  Unfortunately, he was one of the earliest casualties of the era, as he passed away very young in 1922, just over 100 years ago.  McMurray, therefore, is one of the rare and unsung talents of the era, and thanks to Archeophone Records, his legacy has been given some attention and thus is preserved. As to movies, my good friends at Zeus DVDs have a treasure trove of vintage big band films, and one of those I obtained was A Song is Born, which was released originally in theatres in 1948 and featured the talents of Benny Goodman, Louis Armstrong, Lionel Hampton, Charlie Barnet, and Benny Carter.  A similar lineup could be found in a 1944 film I also got called Jam Session, and the third movie I was able to get was from 1943, Around the World, which was one of the many pictures Kay Kyser's orchestra was featured in.  With those added to my collection now, it pretty much gives us everything we wanted as far as vintage big band movies go, and those movies in my collection begin with 1929's The Vagabond Lover, featuring Rudy Vallee, and end with 1994's Swing Kids, which entailed the persecution that young big band and jazz fans faced in Nazi Germany during the 1940s.  Thanks to modern technology, I now have a library of all these vintage films, and that is amazing in itself.  Those six items are essentially what I have gotten this past year, and although few, they are still significant and are integral to preserving this great music. 

I was also able to get my second CD shelf assembled last December, and also able to integrate all of the new CDs I had gotten over the past 6 years into the main collection.  I have a small collection of classic jazz recordings I have been getting since I was younger, and I decided to integrate those into the collection as well, which also swelled the numbers a bit from where they were.  In this context, "classic jazz" refers essentially to any post-Swing Era small-group jazz acts - the bebop legends such as Charlie Parker and Theolonius Monk, late 1950s and early 1960s jazz groups such as those of Dave Brubeck, Vince Guaraldi, and Ray Bryant, and later fusion jazz such as Freddy Hubbard as well as classic original jazz from later years such as Wynton Marsalis.  Integrating those into my main music collection essentially broadens the scope of my interests a bit, in that now it is still predominantly big band recordings but also there is a substantial amount of early popular music vocalists and vocal groups, post-WWII modern jazz, and some instrumental items (early Ray Conniff, Henry Mancini, etc.) that I actually like.  However, unlike my early collection efforts in my teens, I am not being indiscriminate in my collection, but rather am focusing on some things I like and am incorporating those into the collection as a whole.  It shows a level of evolution in my efforts too, as in the early days of just buying quarter LPs at the Rio Mall, when I got practically any artist that Henry Boggen played on WBT on his Sunday night show I listened to then, to for many years just focusing on vintage big bands and trying to limit what else I got, to finally accepting that some of the other stuff was actually good and I had favorites that I liked (for instance, I still appreciate Pat Boone's "Love Letters in the Sand," as well as non-big band instrumentals like Ray Conniff's "S'wonderful" and Henry Mancini's "Theme from Mr. Lucky.").  So, I am at that point of just incorporating those into the collection and broadening my musical interests while at the same time remaining true to my vintage big band core collection.  And, after 41 years of my love of this music, I have a collection I like and can be proud of.  This is where we are as we embark on Year 42.  

I am also considering now taking my collection and turning it into something more constructive, and I feel like my soon-to-be-earned Ph.D. will be a vehicle for doing that.  Although my dissertation I am working on is something completely different from music, I have been toying with the idea of actually doing my own book later on vintage big bands, and it would be a different sort of book than the earlier histories of legendary writers and commentators such as George T. Simon and Leo Walker.  Rather, I am thinking more on the lines of what the big band genre actually is (and if it is even fair to call it "big band," as it also entailed a lot of smaller groups), as well as when and where this musical tradition evolved from.  My theories, as I have been listening to this stuff for a good 43 years now, are going to probably be something totally different from what many music historians have said.  For one, I don't tie big bands exclusively to the evolution of jazz - while they are somewhat entwined, the big band tradition I believe predates jazz by decades, in that I see its roots in the parlor orchestras - such as those of Edward Issler - of the 1880s, as well as the minstrel show music of individuals such as Will Marion Cook from around the same period of time.  The collection I have now actually reflects that, and what I want to do is create a new and unique history of this great music that would entail my theories on this.  I can see it now though - there will be jazz purists, as well as even other big band enthusiasts, who will more than likely give me guff about what I will say, but that is OK.  After all, I am not the first to stir up controversy in that area, as the late jazz historian Richard Sudhalter sort of did the same thing in his book Lost Chords when he correctly noted that jazz was not exclusively an African-American art form, but rather an American art form that reflected the melting-pot influence of its earliest performers.  I plan on also incorporating Sudhalter's view into my own thesis, and basically taking it and expanding it but not focusing as much on jazz, as the music genre called big band actually encompasses even more complexity in its origins.  I aim to do essentially the first academic study of the big band movement as a whole. and in doing so, it will be my ultimate expression of my own passion for collecting this wonderful music. And, a project like that would be the ultimate legacy of my own interest in the music itself. 

As for this coming year, I am not sure where we are going. I don't have a set goal as to how many CDs or anything else I will acquire, but I do have my eyes on a couple of things.  For one, there has recently been a reissued collection of several volumes on the Classics label of Hal Kemp's whole catalogue, and at this time there are seven volumes.  That will be an objective this year.  The other item I have on the scope that is of interest is a classic LP that was released in 1958 that was very innovative.  It features two orchestras - Les Brown's Band of Renown and the orchestra of Vic Schoen (who was better known for being the conductor of the band that backed the Andrews Sisters and others in the 1930s and 1940s) - who combine their talents to create a serious work for two bands playing together.  I have heard some of this actually, and it is phenomenal.  The album has never been reissued on CD, so I will settle for the LP original for now.  There may be some other things that come up between now and next year at this time, so we will play that by ear.  But, the goal has been set, and we will get the Hal Kemp collection as well as the Les Brown/Vic Schoen LP classic.  If we are successful at obtaining those, it will boost my collection to 3195, just short of 3200.  That is OK though, as I am at a point in my collection where numbers are no longer a factor, but rather focusing on those items we really want to get.  

Thank you for allowing me to share my journey of 41 years of a phenomenal music collection, and I look forward to sharing Year 42.  

Friday, August 18, 2023

My Choice For President

 Election Year - 2024 - is fast approaching, and already there are a number of candidates who have thrown their proverbial hats in the ring.  A lot is at stake in this election, perhaps more than in any other.  At present, we have a senile old fool named Joe Biden who is in the White House, and he is useless, corrupt, out-of-touch, and he is more interested in Ukrainian transvestites than he is his own citizens.  Simply put, we cannot afford another 4 years of him.  There are plenty of Republican candidates - as well as one somewhat decent Democrat, RFK Jr. - vying for the position.  So, who will come out on top?   Let's look at things.

The obvious front-runner for the Republicans is Donald Trump, and Trump does represent the mindset of the average man in the street in so many ways.  Then there is Ron DeSantis, who has been a stellar governor in Florida and also has some good ideas, although he often does not really have the "oomph" factor to communicate them.  Then, there are some really bad Republicans - the overly-obese Chris Christie, who is useless; Asa Hutchinson, who in reality should be a Democrat; and Nikki Haley, who on occasion has said good things but for the most part I cannot really figure her out.  Then there is the former Vice President and Race Bannon (from the old Johnny Quest cartoons) clone Mike Pence - Pence is a nice guy, but as a leader he would stink honestly.  But, there is another who really has shaken up the status quo, and to be honest I am putting my support around him to be the Republican nominee, and that is newcomer Vivek Ramaswamy.  I want to focus my discussion now on him, as he is of interest.  


Vivek Ramaswamy is an American-born tycoon and entrepreneur of Asian Indian descent, and at 38 he is youthful and enthusiastic.  He has many good ideas, and so far what I have seen of him I like.  Now, mind you, I am not a Republican myself - I would rather have a dozen root canals than be part of the current Republican Party, which is dominated by a bunch of Establishment hacks who are out-of-touch with their base.   The candidates that are getting noticed are the ones who stand out - Trump, DeSantis, and now Vivek.  To be honest, any of the three of them I believe would be a good Republican contender against the Senile Sovereign that is in the Oval Office now, but it will come down to one.  More than likely Trump will be the guy who gets the nomination, and naturally I will vote for him if he does.  But, there are issues with both Trump and DeSantis that need to be considered, and like commentator Ben Shapiro said today in his podcast, the objective is to kick Biden out of the White House, and we need the best person to do that.  Are any of these guys that person?  

Trump has already been President, and while he was in office he did a lot of good stuff for the country.  Having him back in the White House would be very welcomed.  But, Trump has issues.   For one, the myriad indictments taking place against him - all of which I think are bogus and are a way Democrats are plotting to get rid of him as a serious contender -  may cause a problem.  Also, despite the fact I believe Trump to be effective, his weakness is that at times he doesn't activate the filter between his mouth and his brain, and that has caused him issues.   As for DeSantis, he has excellent policies and a pretty impressive and effective track record as Governor of Florida.  He has the potential to be a wonderful leader if he were elected, but the problem is that he is now becoming America's best-kept secret - he is not really strong on his national campaign.  Then there is Vivek - of the top three, I think Vivek has a lot of promise.  He is passionate, very conservative, and he also does admit where he is weak and I believe he knows how to delegate authority so that his weaknesses can be compensated.  Even people who like Trump and DeSantis seem to also have a fondness for Vivek, but at times there are some things people bring up about him, and I want to get into that now. 

The first thing people tend to bring up is that Vivek is not a Christian, but a Hindu.  I have heard some conservative commentators I listen to say that an American President has to be Christian.  I would argue that this is not necessarily true.  We are not electing a religious leader; we are electing the leader of our nation, and personally I want a leader who reflects my values, and although Vivek is Hindu, he does  have some pretty good traditional views on social issues - that is all I am really concerned about, and he passes the test there.  Some others have made issue about his name - it is obviously not a European name by any stretch, but again, I am not concerned about that at all.  After all, did we not have a President for 8 years named Barack Hussein Obama??  That is definitely not a European name either, despite the fact I am distantly related to him on my mother's side of the family - that does not mean I like him though, because Obama was one of the worst Presidents we had yet and he was elected based on his skin color and not his policies or his record, which were practically nonexistent.  Therefore, if a conservative Hindu who loves America more than the White Democrat leftists do becomes President, I am OK with it, and I could care less what his name is.  If we can have a Barack Hussein Obama for 8 years, I don't think there should be an issue with a guy named Vivek Ramaswamy.  

Another issue that many conservatives have with Vivek is his stance on legal immigration - he wants to establish a vetting process for that but not have a set quota or limit, and that has caused concern with some.  Personally, I am conservative, but I am an independent, so in all honesty I am somewhat flexible on this like Vivek is, and I have personal reasons I won't get into now for why I believe as I do.  Not every conservative talking point is good, I will just say that, and there are a few areas I would disagree fundamentally with other Conservatives on, but I also understand where they come from and I respect them too.  This is one of those issues.  The key concept here in regard to immigration is legal - if someone wants to come to our country and respects the system enough to comply with it, that means a lot.  It also means they appreciate American enough to be good patriotic citizens once they are nationalized, and we need all of those we can get!  I have known many foreign-born nationalized citizens of our nation, and many of them are very patriotic, as well as being political Conservatives.  I respect those people, and they are a wonderful addition to our nation, so I would welcome them.  So, I think Vivek has a good idea here - it could probably use a little tweaking and refining, but I think he is smart enough to know that too, so we should give him credit. 

In summary, I am supporting Vivek Ramaswamy as a viable Presidential candidate.  He may or may not get nominated, but he is essential in that he is bringing some things to the table that need to be addressed.  Provided the Republicans nominate a good candidate like Vivek, Trump, or DeSantis, that person will have my vote regardless.  But, I am firmly on Vivek's side too, and it would be wonderful if he would become the nominee to usurp the Alzheimer's Autocrat in the White House now.  Thank you for allowing me to share this brief PSA, and my prayers for our good candidates who are running, and also prayers that the bad ones will evaporate like the dew on the morning grass. 


Wednesday, May 31, 2023

Exploring the Background Ideology of An Evil Regime

 There has perhaps been more attention given to the various aspects of the Third Reich over the past 80 or so years since World War II, and much research has focused upon military history, the Holocaust, and the personage of Adolf Hitler.  However, one of the lacking areas of research for this period of history is the background of how the National Socialist Party (Nazis) came into existence.  And that raises many questions worthy of research.  For one, what things did influence the evolution of National Socialism?  Secondly, how did those concepts converge to construct a new ideology, and to what degree did the Nazis fully identify with earlier movements?  Finally, when studying the Third Reich, one notices that Hitler and the Nazis actually ended up persecuting people they shared views with - why was that?   These are the questions warranting a need to tackle, and now they will be the focus of this Ph.D. dissertation. 

As with anything else, the important foundational fact in researching this or any other topic is that things do not appear suddenly out of a vacuum - somewhere along the way, there are factors that shape, influence, and contribute to the overall final product.  While some historians have indeed specialized in this aspect of the research - two that come to mind are Richard Weikart and Benjamin Wiker - for the most part it is often shrugged off by academia as being too broad of a topic with the impossibility of narrowing down. This is a problem that is evident at the university level in dealing with faculty.  One faces challenges with this whole thing due to the fact that there are serious barriers to research - one, surprisingly, is the academic institution itself.  This is a major reason why this topic has not been indulged from a more scholarly perspective, although tons of popular literature on topics such as Nazism and the occult are widely available, and the recourse is to often use these sources as a resource to find primary source material, as surprisingly these more "conspiratorial" works so easily dismissed by academics do have a wealth of primary source leads for more in-depth research.  And, in the case of Nazism, it is also important to know German as well, which I do have extensive language study in.  One thing to remember though is to "stay the course" despite garnering opposition, and in time the research will compensate itself. 

In conducting research on these ideological sources, it is admittedly a challenge to sort things out, but in doing so research has been narrowed to four primary areas - occultism, political movements that arose at the end of the 19th century in Germany and Austria, the impact of social Darwinism and also the issue of homosexuality in early Nazi circles, and finally the philosophical views of Nietzsche, Houston Stewart Chamberlain, and Martin Heidegger.  The approach is to treat each of these areas individually, and then see how they converge and intersect in creating what became the National Socialist movement.  The oft-overlooked question, however, would be how the Nazis cherrypicked ideas and then discarded the sources of those ideas when they were no longer convenient.  The jailing, for instance, of Karl Haushofer, the geopolitical professor who more or less gave Hitler the idea of Lebensraum, and the falling from grace of Rudolf von Sebottendorf, the early German occultist who founded the Thule Society, an occultic sect that birthed the National Socialist Party as a political arm.  For a lot of this type of material, German-language sources in the form of correspondence and official government documents is crucial, as the Nazis had a public face that often belied their origins and seemed to contradict them.  Aside from identifying the ideological sources themselves, this is one of the more important factors that merits further examination outside of "conspiratorial" literature as was popular on these topics during the 1970s and 1980s.  

Much scholarship in this area - including some well-meaning professors at the particular university where this dissertation will be submitted - casually dismiss the possibility of an organized National Socialist ideology.  While it is understandable where they are coming from (it is agreed that the Nazis were one of the evilest movements to ever exist), caution must be exercised to avoid being too dismissive of this.  In order for a movement to have success - both good and evil movements - having an organized platform of ideas is crucial.  And, while the Nazis tended to be somewhat utilitarian and opportunistic, they did still manage to craft a very plain ideology that merits some examination, as it also sheds light on the background of the Holocaust and World War II in general.  Therefore, the focus of this research is primarily in the decades prior to the Third Reich - from approximately the 1890s to the 1920s - and focuses on ideological and social history primarily, with some examination of the overarching themes present in the time period as a whole (the conflict between Enlightenment-era rationalism and the rise of interest in alternative religious expressions during the Victorian period in America and Europe, etc.).  In understanding the overarching influences and factors that provided the fertile ground for cultivating a certain ideology, it brings a fuller understanding of what the ideology actually is. 

Therefore, in conclusion, this is a project that entails ideological background, and at times sources will need to be used that fall out of the academic spectrum - meaning popular or "conspiratorial" literature - because this area has honestly been largely ignored until recent years by conventional scholarship. Many of these undiscovered sources conceal a wealth of primary source material (including much in the original language of the culture the topic addresses) that would aid in this study, and therefore cannot be casually dismissed.  Some of these sources may actually contain material that is agreeable to the researcher, but agreement must not supersede empirical evidence.  That is perhaps the most prominent historiographical issue for this specific topic.  However, it must be restated that understanding the background of an ideology of any sort will provide a backdrop for other topics within the same historical context.